Connection Within, Connection Without

“Can I have some space, baby? I want to get into writing and really get into it - talk out loud and such.”

^^ Me asking for what I want ~ lovingly ~ rather than feeling the desire arise (for alone time, in this case, but could have been anything) and then bypassing the feeling out of awkwardness or fear. Which nearly always leads me to resentment of the other and judgment of myself, for not speaking up.

I’m learning. Learning to notice the subtleties of my moment-to-moment wants. Learning to speak them aloud, despite the possibility of disapproval. Learning to speak them with both honesty and kindness. 

These ways of inter-acting feel essential to me, at this point in my journey. Learning how to partner, how to coordinate the flow of life with others. Self awareness & communication. This is food. 

It’s not essential to live with others. Solitude can be a beautiful path. Partnering with the divine, or with non-human beings, are beautiful ways to go through these wild woods. 

And, I’m feeling aware of a particular calling in this moment - towards intimacy with other humans, towards family and community. 

My prayer today,
Is that I can continue to learn how to hold resonant, enlivening relationships. That I can let go of fears getting in the way. And that my path of teaching others to do so, can add more love to this world. 

For those who want the support, the joyfulness and sweetness of partnership with others, I’m here. For those who want the solid foundation of connection with self, I’m here.

More love to this world. More love to this world. 

-Liv